Bismillahir Rahmanir Raheem
Salam alaykoum wa Rahmatullah Wa Barakatuhu
So after a lot of research and sleepless nights i finally renounced Shiism. It has been a hard path so bear with me on that .
I am originally from the Balkans , In Eastern/southern Europe and i was born a Christian but i never really believed in Trinity so i started researching other religions including buddhism,judaism ,Islam , etc . I read a lot on all of them but it never really spoke to me until i met a Shia friend who introduced me to Shiism. He narrated the stories of Ali and Hussein and it touched me deeply and shiism was a viable option because it seemed to be less like the Islam of the Turks that they wanted to force on us . So i converted and became a really practicing Shia . I read Al Kafi , Kitab Sulaym Ibn Qays ( Shia books that most Shia layman never read ) , kitab at tawhid of Saduq etc . I was really convinced of my belief except one thing which always brought me doubts and that was the 12th Imam's occultation. I could never wrap my mind around it and it never made sense to my rational mind and Alhamdulilah this is the reason why ultimately it started the domino of all my shia beliefs falling one after the other . I stayed Shia for 4 years but in these 4 years i thought about leaving the religion a couple times because some things just made no sense but my supposed love for Hussein and Ahlul Bayt (RAA) made me stay . So for this ''love'' i made my brain accept every possible nonsense . If someone would have met me a couple months ago he would have found the biggest hater of Abu Bakr , Umar and Aisha . But i kept reading and contrary to most Shia ,i started using my aql instead of my emotions . I saw that there is no Isnad for most Shia Hadiths , including the most ''sahih ''book Al Kafi . The Incident of Umar burning Fatima Door is a weak narration ,as are most narrations Shias use against Sunnis . The most disgusting thing i read is the supposed mahdi coming and butchering innocent arabs and that he will avenge ahlul-bayt by ressurecting Abu Bakr,Umar and Aisha to make them suffer . This to me was indeed the confirmation that Shiism is influenced by Persian Zoroastrianism . BTW most Shias do not even know those narrations ,especially the Arabs .
There is so many issues i could quote like mutah, tatbir, Imams worship etc but apart from false narrations and persian influence in Shiism , the other thing that really bothered is that Shiism is stagnant. what i mean by that is since the 12th imam is into ghayba , shias cannot do jihad, friday prayer or any obligation that supposedly takes the presence of an infaillible Imam to fulfill. so we have no Quran since Tahrif is a belief attested by many shia ulama (Saduq,Kulayni , Al Majlissi ) and we have no Imam . Basically Islam according to Shiism is dead and all we can do is obey ''ayatollahs'' who can barely recite the Quran and speak arabic and give them 20% of our money . This made no sense to me and after a lot of stressful moments where i felt like my faith was shattered and that i was leaving Ahlul-Bayt i decided to follow my Aql and renounce superstitions and nonsense and finally embrace Original Islam as taught by RasoulAllah(SAWAS) and his Companions(RA) and Familly (RA) Alhamdulilah .
I am looking forward to discuss with other knowlegeable brothers about comparitive religion InshaAllah
Ps: I know shias on the forum will say that i am a salafi arab pretending to be an ex-shia but whatever , before i get accused of wahabism ,i am actually a Sunni Shafi'i